Sometimes I have to remind myself to breathe. I have to take myself out of that moment. The one two years ago when I lost my mother. The moment we said our last and final goodbye.  Sometimes, I find myself lost in that last goodbye.  Sometimes that fateful moment slips into my head and heart and it aches just as intensely as the moment I…

This weekend I attended an event filled with incredible women. We discussed motherhood and shared stories. We engaged in conversations that made me feel less alone in parenting, and life in general.  We were asked to share times when we’ve felt like a failure in regards to motherhood. Times where we felt we weren’t living up to the standards and responsibilities of this important role.…

Have you ever noticed how much our lives intertwine with our mother’s. Every detail, every event, every emotion, every milestone. Our mothers are always there, so connected and involved, and proud.  Immediately, they are our protectors. They become our biggest advocate and evolve beautifully into the single most important person in our lives. They have a power and love that is undeniable. They become our…

Three years ago on this very day my mother showed up unannounced. I knew it meant something significant. I knew it wasn’t good. It was days away from Valentine’s Day, but I knew her delivery was going to be more thorns than roses. I’m not sure if she actually said the words, but I knew her cancer had returned. I could tell by the sorrow…

I left the allergists office with tears and results that were less than what I was hoping for. Our one-year-old hadn’t outgrown his anaphylactic allergies.  As I let the emotion spill down my face my husband leans in and says, “What is it? What’s making you upset?” “All of it. I wish things were different. I was praying he’d outgrow it. I just don’t want…