It is a unique blend of holding on and letting go when you are preparing for the death of your parent. You sit there unsure of what to pray for. Do you pray for more days, more time, more moments together? Do you pray for a peaceful and quick passing? Do you pray for a miracle?  If you’re like me, you end up praying for…

Today is your birthday. You’re not here, but that doesn’t keep us from celebrating. After you left, we never stopped celebrating you and your greatness. Each year has been different. Some years cake, some years activities that you loved, but every year there are tears. Tears celebrating a life gone too soon. Tears celebrating the blessing that you were and the blessing you remain. Tears…

I’m an emotional and complicated girl. Rightfully so. I’ve gone through some turmoil in my 37 years. But let’s face it, who hasn’t.  I’ve been the girl who was picked on. I’ve been the girl who picked on others. I’ve been the girl who married a guy blind of his addictions and emotional distress. I’ve been a girl wrapped tightly in chaos through a tricky…

Today, I find myself not needing to search for you. Today, it’s as if you didn’t leave this earth. I can see your smile as if I just saw it yesterday. I can feel your touch and your warm hugs. I can vividly see you standing there as if you actually are, but you’re not.  How can you be gone when today your presence feels…

The day my mother died, everything changed. My mind became a complex mess of the heartbreaking reality of her death and delusions that I’d wake up and it would all have been a bad dream. My mother’s funeral and showing were a blur. I remember very little from the days immediately following her passing. I was numb. I was heartbroken. I was exhausted and confused…