I lay in bed and close my eyes. I wait. I know it will find me eventually. It always does.  The darkness. The grief. The emptiness. The heartbreak. They always come. Traveling together.  I’ve had a great day, full of fun and family and joy. But that doesn’t matter. The darkness always finds me. It doesn’t steal the joy and happiness of the day, it…

Three years ago today my world collapsed. Three years ago today I learned the ability to continue living with a piece of my heart shattered, exposed, and raw. Three years ago today I hugged and kissed my mother for the very last time.  Three years ago today my mother left this earth. Some days it feels like it was just yesterday that I heard her…

The thunder rolls. It’s loud and noticeable. It bangs. It rattles. It roars. Streaks of lightning cut through like an illuminated knife.  This thunder, this storm, it isn’t outside, nor found in the sky. This is the storm of loss.  The storm of grief. Mighty and strong. Steady and unpredictable. A storm that causes destruction of the soul. A storm that causes destruction of the…

I’ve read countless “Marry the Person Who…” articles. All have held truth. All have held beauty. However, after enduring the loss of my mother, grief made my list much different than the ones I’ve read.  Grief taught me important components of relationships and love. Grief revealed new aspects of my husband’s love and support that I never knew I needed, but became so grateful to…

I will never stop looking at you like this. With a sparkle in my eye and a smile across my face. I will never stop staring at you with amazement and awe. You are my daughter and you occupy an entire space of my heart.  You could be 5, you could be 50, my love will always find you. It will always surround you. It’s…