Grief brings a whole new knowing, a completely new set of knowledge and awareness. Life as you knew it, life as you planned it, life as it will be from now on, all transformed. All carefully crafted in a way that has depleted your path from the person you loved so dearly.  Grief delivers a whole new knowing, a new set of pain and longing…

My mind has never truly failed me. Sure I’ve forgotten things and gotten answers wrong but it’s never truly let me down or failed me, until the death of my mother.  When unconscionable grief entered my life it was as if my mind was no longer cooperating. No longer sound or correct or in proper function. It was absolutely no help to my broken heart…

Grief is like being tender to the touch. Like every inch of our bodies, inside and out, has been harshly scratched with sandpaper.  Like being more raw and exposed than ever before and still forced out into the world messy, broken, shattered and confused. Forced to fake smiles and hold strength we don’t have. Forced to tuck away our truths and our knowing because they…

Someone asked about you the other day. They wondered if I’d heard from you. They wondered what had become of you now that it’s been nearly a decade since our divorce and the downfall of your life with addiction.  I explained I hadn’t heard from you since the moment our divorce was finalized. I explained you are now a stranger and a shadow, but also…

I’m nearing the four year mark of my mother’s passing. In a couple months time the anniversary of her death will arrive, as will the insurmountable grief that comes along with this darkened day on the calendar.  Knowing the incoming pain, I try to prepare myself. I sit outside and find the calm and quiet the outside air provides. I start talking to her. It’s…