A Life You Haven’t Met

Hello there. Welcome to a new life, the sudden life that has found you, your new life. The life you haven’t yet met. Until now. 

The life filled with loss, death, and grief. This life gifts you extra moments while having just stolen someone you loved immensely. Someone you needed. 

This is your new life. It will be filled with additional joy and beauty, but for now they are tucked away, hidden. For now, you will ache. You will house longing so deep it nearly turns you inside out. You will house confusion so chaotic it will feel like your brain has been thrown in a blender, highest setting. You will house anger so consuming it will change the color and composition of your heart, though you can’t see it. You will hold sorrow and despair with a ferocity like you’ve never known. You’ll experience new feelings and emotions and you’ll fail to understand what they mean.

You’ll feel crazy. You’ll feel lost. You’ll feel alone and broken.

This is your new life, one completely unknown until now. Fresh and unfamiliar, though it feels more like death’s twin than any form of rebirth or new adventure. 

It’s a life gifted by grief. One you’ve never met. One you never wanted. One that eventually finds everyone. A universal second-life, the one that finds you when you’ve lost someone so significant, portions of you die too. Your very own before and after. The you before loss has been transformed into this new you, after loss. 

You are forever changed.

Welcome to your new life, one you’ve never met until now, one that you’ll keep forever. One millions of souls have already entered. The life that knows grief, deep loss, and beautiful love. 

xox, Chels