She held the title of mother. She held the responsibility of friend, caretaker, referee, chauffeur, and all the other duties that come with motherhood. She was my mother, my person, my secret keeper, my safe place.
The day she left for her eternity, my life shifted and transformed. I no longer had the safe place, the guiding light, the endless motherly love.
I long for all of the intricate knowings that she held as my mother…
A mother knows every failure and every victory.
A mother knows when to cheer loudly and when a silent prideful smile is best.
A mother knows when your heart is about to break, and even truer, a mother knows the moment it has broken into a million pieces.
A mother knows when your mind is stressed and blurred with fear.
A mother knows when you need a hug, a kiss, or a bold reminder to keep going.
A mother knows when to pick you up and when to let you stand alone.
A mother knows when you’re hungry for things beyond food. For knowledge, for love, for acceptance, for encouragement, for inspiration.
A mother knows when you’re scared, doubtful, embarrassed, and unsure.
A mother knows you in your entirety, each and every piece, and loves you beautifully.
A mother can be taken, lost, and gone too soon, but a mother cannot be replaced or forgotten.
A mother carries the memories of every victory, every failure, and every secret with them into eternity. A place where their legacy is born, and a mother-daughter relationship tragically transformed forever.
A mother knows how to love you beautifully beyond death and beyond separation.
Even after her final breath, a mother knows.
A thirty-something wife, mother and educator who has Indiana roots and a passionate spirit. Chelsea is a sappy romantic, coffee junkie, book collector, and person who wears her heart on her sleeve. She’s sarcastic, full of jokes, full of tears, and enjoys writing most when life gets messy or complicated. In 2017, Chelsea's mother passed away. Through her grief journey, she decided to take her mother’s advice and share her writing with the world. One day she gained the courage to honor her mother's wishes and write. It turned out to be one of the best decisions she's ever made.