As Far as I Can

February 26, 2021

She said, “I’m not ready.”

With a shattered heart I said, “Me either.”

She said, “I love you, to the moon and back, forever.”

With my whole heart, I said, “I love you more.”

She said, “I’m scared.”

With fear and anxiety I said, “I’m scared too.”

She said, “I think it’s time.”

Through tears I whispered, “I’ll go with you.”

“You know you can’t do that,” she replied.

“I know, but I’ll go as far as I can.”

And it was true, and it wasn’t far, because before I could walk with her as she stepped into eternity, she disappeared into her forever. 

xox, Chels

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2 responses to “As Far as I Can”

  1. Layla says:

    This is so beautiful. I remember a few hours before my mom died, we had just received news of her terminal cancer diagnosis.. I walked into the room, sat on the edge of her hospital bed and just stared at her wondering how I was going to make it through without her. And out of nowhere I broke my silence and said loudly “I love you”. She removed her oxygen mask and whispered with all her strength “i love you too”..those were the last words we spoke..she lost consciousness a few minutes later and passed away 3 hours after that

    • chelseaohlemiller says:

      Layla, I felt these words. I hate we share this heartbreak but I’m so honored that my words resonate with you and others. I pray you continue to find hope and comfort on my page. It’s the very reason I started writing. I wanted to know if others felt the same, and if they did, to let them know they are not alone. Grief is so messy and complicated, but we’re all in this together and I’m lifting you in prayer and light today! xox, Chels

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Chelsea Ohlemiller

Chelsea Ohlemiller

A thirty-something wife, mother and educator who has Indiana roots and a passionate spirit. Chelsea is a sappy romantic, coffee junkie, book collector, and person who wears her heart on her sleeve. She’s sarcastic, full of jokes, full of tears, and enjoys writing most when life gets messy or complicated. In 2017, Chelsea's mother passed away. Through her grief journey, she decided to take her mother’s advice and share her writing with the world. One day she gained the courage to honor her mother's wishes and write. It turned out to be one of the best decisions she's ever made.

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