She is broken. She is shattered. She is changed, forever. She is a woman with a mother in heaven. She is angry. She is confused. She is scared.  She wants so desperately to hold hope and faith but somehow they have become unknown entities in this current state of life. She is suddenly surrounded by darkness while desperately searching for a speck of light. She…

I’m anxious and it’s apparent to everyone around me. My family is used to my anxiety. I’ve had it since I was a child. I should allow myself to be present in this moment instead of fearful for things that are days and weeks away. I should be enjoying this special family time. I know this but it doesn’t change my mood or my stress…

Her comment reads, “I’m sorry but once people leave this world they aren’t “watching over” anything or anyone here.” Years ago her words would have stung, in fact they might have even made my faith waver and my heart feel lonely. Today, her words don’t intimidate me. Instead, they make me smile because unfortunately she doesn’t know how wrong she is. Clearly she hasn’t experienced…

My heart is pounding as I sit on the paper-wrapped table in the doctor’s office– waiting. It’s a notable feat that I’m even here, simply scheduling the appointment was something I’d avoided for years. I’m twirling my thumbs and tapping my foot in anxiousness as I await the doctor to enter. I was oblivious to this part of grief until my mother died. It’s the…