Making Memories Without You

You left this earth. We weren’t ready. Years later, I still get confused about how we live a life and reality without you. Years later, I’m confused how we are here, making memories without you.

I never thought you’d be missing all the fun, the laughs, the moments, the adventures, the trips…

But here we are, making memories without you.

I never thought you’d be missing the birth of your grandchild, the first steps, the first words, the moments where I need your parenting advice, the moments where I need you…

But here we are, making memories without you.

I never thought you’d be missing the first days of school, the grandparents days, the field trips, the special school moments that come each year…

But here we are, making memories without you. 

I never thought you’d miss the birthdays, the holidays, the cake making, cookie making, and all the endless baking that you so very much enjoyed…

But here we are, making memories without you. 

I never thought you’d miss the beach sunsets, the sandcastles, the sandy messes the kids are making, the endless trips to the hotel pool and the treats that help make any vacation so sweet…

But here we are, making memories without you. 

I never imagined a day where we’d be making memories without you. But here we are, doing it daily. 

Your absence stings. It feels surreal. It goes between waves of denial and waves of such a brutal reality that it knocks the wind out of me. 

Making memories without you is different. Life is different. Joy, love, and pain are different since losing you. Honestly, everything is. 

But we sit here, making memories without you…in hopes that you’re here, invisible to the human eye, but forever present in our hearts. Forever watching over all of these memories that for us, you’re missing from. 

The hope is that you’re not missing them at all…you just have a different view, and maybe your view is the best one of them all. 

xox, Chels