This is a reality of working from home.
The reality of the mixture between graduate school and motherhood. The realistic view of hard work, effort, and Spiderman. The mixture of holding a toddler, while writing the next piece for my website and ensuring virtual learning goes well for my older two. It’s being poked with Darth Vader while trying to finalize the remaining pieces of my research project.
It’s messy and chaotic and full of purpose.
It’s the grit of trying to be a mother, while also trying to fulfill my passions, dreams, and individual goals. It’s full laps, full schedules, and full plates. It’s multitasking with exhaustion, frustration, and love. Immense love, and sometimes an overwhelmed spirit too.
It’s the continued efforts to keep learning, keep growing, and keep achieving things that set my soul on fire. Things more than motherhood.
It’s holding bowls of fruit loops while scanning the words of academic journals.
It’s managing the noises of laughter, arguments, and tears, while listening to the online lectures of my professors.
It’s cuddling while typing papers.
It’s giving pieces and attention to each responsibility, all at the same time.
It’s motherhood mixed with the pursuit of additional dreams and goals.
It’s motherhood mixed with work and school.
It’s hard. It’s complicated. It’s trying. But it’s worth it.
Completely worth it.
Even with puffy eyes and additional grey hair, it’s worth it.